It was hard not knowing if we would have money to buy food or keep a roof over our heads. I dealt with immense fear every time I stepped foot into the grocery store because spending money meant we had less to rely on for other things like our electric bill and mortgage. On top of that, I hated my job and came home frustrated or in tears most of the time. I didn’t know how to deal with that while also knowing that my husband was doing his best to find a job to support us.
Beyond Unemployment…Not Always Sunshine and Daisies
I know that it was a blessing when he finally landed a job but things did not get much better. The pay was only a little more than unemployment, we still had no insurance and he was miserable because of the environment he dealt with on a daily basis which in turn made me miserable because I hated to see him in such a bad mood most of the time.
Thankfully he found a new job less than a year later and it was a much better opportunity! Then it all came crashing down in just ten months when he called me to say that he had just been laid off. Work dried up and they couldn’t afford to keep him.
I panicked. How could we handle unemployment again? Deep down I knew that God would provide but after that day I began to deal with increased anxiety, something I still struggle with to this day.
The two and a half years that followed his second lay off have been easier on us financially but still very stressful. He found some contract work and eventually was hired again but we dealt with uncertainty about his job security along with trying to understand growing concerns I had about the state of my health.
Near the end of last year, we finally decided that it was time for my husband to start looking for another job. We just couldn’t take the stress of the uncertainty anymore. He looked online and found a few possibilities but none of them seemed like they quite fit the direction he was hoping to take with a new job. He applied to one job but never heard anything.
The Perfect Job?
Then, seemingly out of nowhere he was contacted by someone whom he knew from another company through his current position asking if he would be interested in applying for a job. After reading the job description, I was honestly a bit skeptical. It seemed like a step back from where he was hoping to go not a move forward.
We talked about it some more and decided that he should at least apply and see what happens. He was quickly offered an interview! The more we thought about it, the more we realized that this could be the prefect job for him. He would be able to take his background and more recent experience and combine them into one job. Plus they needed skills that he excelled in. I began to realize that this job might be made just for him!
A few days after the interview, he was offered the job!! He was even able to negotiate a little on the salary because they believe that he has a lot to bring to this new job. I am so proud of him and where he has come in this crazy journey.
However, I would be remiss not to say that only God could have orchestrated this story in such a way. I am seeing how all the pieces and hardships are coming together to prepare us for what is to come. I don’t know what the future holds for my husband and this job but I know God lead us to this place in our journey and I trust that he will continue to lead us through whatever comes next.
Looking Ahead and Leaning On God
It has been a rough ride for many years now, especially in relation to employment. We’ve also dealt with questions about my health, depression, anxiety along with plenty of stress and uncertainty. I know that God has and will continue to use these things to shape and grow us but I am glad that I can finally see some light through the storm.
We are embarking on a new season and I am excited for some much needed changes! Along with my husbands new job we are planning to sell our condo soon and move into a house. We have decided to rent until we save up enough money for a down payment. I have been dreaming of space that gives me the freedom to enjoy the outdoors and stretch out a bit more.
Yet even with these exciting changes, I am still learning that hardships don’t just instantly go away. People get sick, death still exists, stuff breaks down and some days are just plain hard. I think one lesson I am trying to learn through all of this is that things still happen that can throw us off course but God wants nothing more than for us to lean in to him and trust that He’s got this.
Are you currently experiencing unemployment and looking for more encouragement? Check out Hope: Thriving While Unemployed by Carl and Angi Schneider.